muscle memory

It’s been six days since I started teaching myself to play the piano. At first, I was completely flabbergasted by what I was working towards: You mean I have to know what notes all the keys are, which fingers to play them with, read music and keep time, and eventually have both hands doing their own thing at the same time?? Riiiiiight.

Muscle memory is a wonderful thing. Twenty minutes in the morning after breakfast, thirty minutes after dinner, every day, and I’m already doing things that I wouldn’t have believed possible for musically-challenged me. I hunker down, concentrate on a snippet of music, play the same notes over and over again, until my fingers are doing it on their own. Like crocheting, beginning is the hardest part; figuring out the pattern, the several false starts, the forehead-furrowing eyes-narrowing concentration, and then, suddenly my fingers are no longer tangling all over themselves, but sure, confident, strong. It’s like running, or flying. I don’t have to think about it. I just do it.

There’s not much muscle memory involved in writing fiction (unless you count typing or handwriting, which I don’t). It’s much more of a cerebral activity. Yes, there is inspiration, and yes, I have written as if my fingers were on fire, but it’s not quite the same thing. Crocheting, gardening, piano playing–they’re all things I do to rest my mind, to let it coast, in a way that I can’t while writing.

To think that I was concerned that the piano would sit around unused when we got it. The husband, Sir I. and I have been jockeying for piano-playing privileges. The husband flips pages in the piano book until he finds something he’d like to plunk out. Sir I. plays falling snowflakes and thunderstorms in Michigan. Me, I’m the one methodically working my way through the book (page 16. hooray!). Which, I suppose, tells you a lot about the kind of person I am. I’m thinking of splurging on lessons for myself, to undo all the bad habits I’m undoubtedly teaching myself.

Heh. Piano. About the last instrument I would’ve picked for myself. It was always the violin or the flute that I regarded in a romantic rose-colored haze.

Now, do you think the baby will grow up to have perfect pitch? He certainly spends a lot of time under the piano bench while I practise.

recycling

Two of our favorite picture book read-alouds are I Stink! (garbage truck with attitude) and I’m Dirty! (mudbath-lovin’ backhoe) by Kate and Jim Mcmullan. They are an absolute blast to read aloud, complete with sound effects and deep growly big-vehicle voices. The illustrations are simple, bold and suitably icky. Inspired by these books, the kids made collages out of trash (clean trash–no dirty diapers or thrown-out food involved): wadded-up newspapers and crumpled aluminium foil, packaging and clothing tags, painted over with brown for a dirty effect.

Here is Miss M.’s:

Watching the kids get excited about turning trash into art made me think about my creative debris–the freewriting, the journaling, the college essays, the stories that were never completed or had no luster. They take up no room in a landfill, but their ghostly presences tug at me every time I go dumpster-diving in my writing folder. A few have been taken apart and recycled; one of my college application essays, for instance, yielded me a treasure-trove of images that made their way into Second Sight. A failed attempt at a funny mixed-up identities Cinderella story was drastically reworked into the much-darker Lily in Winter. My first attempt at a novel based on the fairytale of the twelve dancing princesses formed the basis of yet another failed novel (hmm, transforming trash into trash??). I go to my freewriting for sensory details, splinters of emotions, strong images and metaphors.

What do you do with your artistic debris? The sketches that weren’t quite right, the stories that didn’t work, odds and ends of crafty hobbies?