burned out and zombiefied

After a lovely weekend with my family, hanging out and doing not-much, I spent Monday night being woken up at 2, 4, 5, 6, and why, yes, 7 am. That set the tone for the rest of the week, with me struggling to keep functioning (and not have a road accident) while running a sleep deficit. I feel much better rested today, which menat that I spent time writing drawing playing piano mopping floors, cleaning the bathroom, tidying the kitchen and baking a mound of scones.

I still have one more story on my plate to revise and send out (soon, soon, really!). Unfortunately, while I am no longer a zombie, I’m still burned out, and in a dry place, writing-wise. I need to push through this revision and treat myself to some fun writing. What that will be, I do not know yet. I have several story ideas rattling around my head, but somehow, they’re not quite what I need to do. I have a tendency to turn everything I’m passionate about into stressful joyless work and right now, I want–no, need–to let myself play at my writing.

How’s everyone else doing?

long weekend–ahhh!

So, the booksale didn’t damage my wallet too badly, despite the fact we hit the hotdog stand for lunch right after instead of eating at home. And I am womanfully resisting the 40% off Borders coupon (good only TODAY!) D. mentioned last night when I commented that we ought to replace our much-mangled copy of Where’s Spot? at some point.

So. This weekend. Here are my plans: Relax. Work in the garden. Clean the whole house. Take the kids on fun and enriching trips. Play the piano lots. Sketch. Revise a story. Do some fun writing. Hang out with my husband. Bake bread. Cook lots of yummy food to freeze. Finish reading the three books I have going at the moment. Remain cheerful, sane and well-rested. *straight face*

……

*crickets chirping*

……

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Who am I kidding? The real plan is to relax, dabble in some creative things, clean house some, and play with the kids. Enjoy the weather, enjoy my family.

linkatopia

The Art Projects Edition:

daisy yellow has a three-part series on organizing summer art projects for you and your kids. I believe my kids have every intention of running wild in our yard and at the park this summer, but I prefer more sedate activities. My planned projects are: making jam, sewing a skirt or two for Miss M., sketching outside (I’ve been eyeing my purple phlox as a potential model), playing the piano. And writing. There is always writing.

As if I really needed more arts & crafts ideas to do with the kids: Deep Space Sparkle and The Crafty Crow.

I’m drooling over these Prismacolor double-ended markers. I just want to spread them out rainbow-like on the table and gloat over them.

I brake for bookstores

Borders has been getting a lot of our business recently. Thanks to 40% off coupons, birthday money, and spend-$50-get-$10-giftcard offers (curse you, evil bookstore!), we’ve acquired a nice big pile of books in the last two weeks:

The most interesting ones are the sf&f books: The Black Ship by Diana Pharoah Francis, Storm Front by Jim Butcher, The Stepsister Scheme by Jim C. Hines, Mistborn by Brandon Sanderson and Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb.

Of course, this pile does not include the two small-press books I got in the mail today, the Amazon order I’m working on (Borders didn’t have all the books I wanted) and the books I will buy at my local library’s book sale on Friday.

Somebody stop me before I spend all our grocery money on books this month.

reprieve

I’m in between stories. One revised and ready, the other waiting. I’m taking this weekend off work in order to coddle a cold, hang out with friends, play Trivial Pursuit with D., crit stories for my writing buddy, bake bread, and other miscellaneous things. Maybe even *shudder* clean house.

*disappears again*

miles to go before I sleep

*pant pant* I’m crossing the Desert of Revisions Without End. I may get a reprieve by Friday (the target market closes, so I’m going to have to stop tinkering). Will be back then.

on motherhood and writing

Happy Mother’s Day: writers on how motherhood has changed them.

I’ve come to a place of peace with this season in my life; a time to raise kids, to enjoy them, to play with them, to be with them. I’m no longer frustrated with my low creative output. I make time for my writing, ten minutes here and there, an hour in the evenings. Sometimes, the husband will take the older kids and leave me to write Saturday mornings. The baby will entertain himself and me by trying to grab my wireless mouse while I type.

When Sir I. was a baby, he would sleep on a boppy pillow across my legs while I wrote. I have fond memories of typing away at 2 am with him in my lap. We’d both sleep in the next morning.

My fears of losing a child have crept their way into my work. So have MCs who are mothers. This is not the time for a diatribe on the distinct lack of mothers in the role of fantasy protagonists, but I assure you the one in my head is long and rant-y.

And on that note, I’m going to end this disjointed post, and go to bed. I’m hoping the story fairy will sprinkle some plot dust on me while I sleep. I need it.

star trek

The reviews of the new Star Trek movie are starting to hit my Google Reader, and they’re quite negative (plot spoilers!).

Glad I didn’t waste my birthday/Mother’s Day weekend sitting through 2 hours of that. I took a nap instead.

Reading those reviews, though, have made me crave some space opera. I haven’t read anything approaching military sf since David Weber took the Honor Harrington series into territory I wasn’t willing to follow him into. You know, I’ve been meaning to check out the Liaden books for a while now and I still have birthday money…

the things of spring

Tulips:

Peas:

Lettuce:

and baby feet:

What’s going on in your gardens this spring (or autumn, for my Aussie friend!)?

reading roundup

I’m a little reluctant to admit that I had never read a book by Elizabth Bear or Neil Gaiman until last month. I expected them both to be fine writers, and I was not disappointed. Their use of language was sure and deft. I was both admiring and envious of their ability to use precisely the right word, to conjure an image with a phrase, to bring the reader into the scene. Gaiman, especially, has the confidence to leave spaces in his narrative, to avoid overexplaining and belaboring the point, to trust to his own subtle hints and the reader’s intelligence to fill in those spaces.

All the Windwracked Stars began with a great premise. The elements of Norse mythology—Ragnorak, valkyries, the World Tree and the Midgard Serpent–are brought into a far future where technology is so advanced as to be magic. The whole setup was weird and compelling, but ultimately I didn’t love the book as much as I’d hoped to. There was a distance between me and the characters, me and the conflict. I didn’t care enough about Muire or the Main Guy Dude (see, I don’t even remember his name). Kasimir was the only one I connected with. There was a sense of meaninglessness to the story, and even the resolution did not dispel that for me. I admire the writing and the premise, but the story didn’t touch me. All the while I read, I kept thinking of the Eliot line about the world not ending with a bang, but a whimper. And that’s kinda what I felt about the end of the novel.

The Graveyard Book, though: original, tightly-written, thoroughly enjoyable, with a cast of delightful characters. I would not mind returning to that world, or following the further adventures of Bod. Now I must seek out more of Gaiman’s work (his adult work, I mean. The Wolves in the Walls, though a fun and funny picture book, does not count, hee).

Snow is a little book which reads like a fairytale. It felt like a string of beads; images, poetry, stories within stories all roped together. I found an undercurrent of pretension in the book, but it did not detract me from enjoying the story, with its romance and drama and grief, just made me gloss over the the writer’s artistic philosophy. I suspect I am too much of a pragmatist to appreciate it. :D

American Creation was my non-fiction read and took me the bulk of the month to get through. I feel like my view of the Revolutionary War and the early years of the US are overly influenced by Ellis, since I’ve read so many of his books. He does make the history accessible, and his chapter on the early dealings of the new country with the Native Americans was poignant and sobering. Not really adjectives I expected to use for this book!

I’m up to book 26 (well, 27, if you count the one book I’ve read so far in May!). Have you read any awesome books this year?